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Everything that follows is a work of fiction created for comedy. Every character, company, advertisement and film title is invented. 'Jesse', 'Koda' and the Red Line roster are fictional characters performed by AI-generated synthetic voices, not recordings of any real person. All characters are fictional consenting adults over 18. No real person is depicted. Any resemblance to real people, businesses or events is coincidental or used as parody.", "rights": "Original work. Not licensed for reuse, redistribution, resale, or model training.", "fiction_notice_end": "THAT WAS ALL JOKES. None of it was real. Every person, company, movie, advertisement and event in this show is made up. These are characters, not real people — performed by AI voices for comedy. Nothing said here is a statement of fact about anybody. Fiction only. Jokes and giggles.", "text": "[ALL FICTION — JOKES ONLY. Everything that follows is a work of fiction created for comedy. Every character, company, advertisement and film title is invented. 'Jesse', 'Koda' and the Red Line roster are fictional characters performed by AI-generated synthetic voices, not recordings of any real person. All characters are fictional consenting adults over 18. No real person is depicted. Any resemblance to real people, businesses or events is coincidental or used as parody.]\n\nColors of my pain has a time card colors of my pain sounds poetic until you realize my pain clocks in early and leaves notes. My pain is not dramatic anymore. It is middle management. It shows up with a clipboard like Jesse. We need to review the last 30 years of decisions before breakfast. I am trying to build websites, clean houses, make comedy, run AI, and my past is standing in the hallway asking if we are going to talk about that thing from 1998. But now, I have a client at 9. That is the funny thing about being 50. You do not heal in a peaceful mountain retreat. You heal between invoices, oil changes, and realizing your back makes a sound when you pick up a sock. The young version of me thought pain would become wisdom automatically. No, pain becomes wisdom only if you stop lying about it, otherwise it becomes personality. And believe me, I gave mine office space. That is why I created the four colors. I needed language for all the versions of people including myself. Red was the protector, green was the thinker, blue adapted, yellow wanted love, and Jesse was in the middle trying to run a business while all four were arguing in the truck. Red says move, green says analyze, blue says, read the room. Yellow says call somebody and tell them you care. Meanwhile my old pain says remember when you messed that up. Yeah, I remember. I built a whole website that is self-rosed, but it is also truth. Those of my pain is not me pretending I suffered beautifully. It is me saying I made mistakes, I carried anger, I chased fast answers, I hurt, I learned, and now I am trying to make the story pay rent. That is very red. Even trauma gets a job. I do not want my pain sitting on the couch eating my future. If it is going to live in my house, it can at least become a book, a joke, a lesson, or a business asset. Some people journal. I turn wounds into content pillars, healthy, debatable, productive, absolutely. But I am learning the balance. Not every scar needs a sale's funnel, not every memory needs a microphone. Some pain is just there to make you gentler, smarter, slower before you bark at someone who only asked a question. That is the lesson. Red can protect without attacking. Green can think without freezing. Blue can adapt without disappearing. Yellow can love without carrying everybody. And Jesse can turn his pain into punchlines without making the punchline be the wound. That is colors of my pain. The past still has a time card, but now I am the one approving the hours.\n\n[THAT WAS ALL JOKES. None of it was real. Every person, company, movie, advertisement and event in this show is made up. These are characters, not real people — performed by AI voices for comedy. Nothing said here is a statement of fact about anybody. Fiction only. Jokes and giggles.]", "fiction_notice_audio": true}