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Everything that follows is a work of fiction created for comedy. Every character, company, advertisement and film title is invented. 'Jesse', 'Koda' and the Red Line roster are fictional characters performed by AI-generated synthetic voices, not recordings of any real person. All characters are fictional consenting adults over 18. No real person is depicted. Any resemblance to real people, businesses or events is coincidental or used as parody.", "rights": "Original work. Not licensed for reuse, redistribution, resale, or model training.", "fiction_notice_end": "THAT WAS ALL JOKES. None of it was real. Every person, company, movie, advertisement and event in this show is made up. These are characters, not real people — performed by AI voices for comedy. Nothing said here is a statement of fact about anybody. Fiction only. Jokes and giggles.", "text": "[ALL FICTION — JOKES ONLY. Everything that follows is a work of fiction created for comedy. Every character, company, advertisement and film title is invented. 'Jesse', 'Koda' and the Red Line roster are fictional characters performed by AI-generated synthetic voices, not recordings of any real person. All characters are fictional consenting adults over 18. No real person is depicted. Any resemblance to real people, businesses or events is coincidental or used as parody.]\n\nColors of my pain has a waiting room, riding colors of my pain is funny because pain does not line up politely. It has a waiting room. Every old chapter sits there with a clipboard like, Jesse, we need to be seen today. I am trying to run a cleaning business, build bombed. App make dream build samples, teach four colors, and suddenly a memory from 30 years ago taps the glass like the DMV called my number. That is the weird part about turning your life into a book. You think you are riding chapters. Really the chapters are interviewing you. One asks, did you learn anything or did you just get louder? That one hurt because it knew my red personality. Red can survive a lot. Red can protect. Red can rebuild. Red can walk through fire and then complain the fire was inefficient. But red also has a habit of calling damage discipline. That is why the memoir matters. It is not just a sad tour. It is me looking at the receipt and admitting what the lesson cost. And because I am me, I cannot leave it serious for too long. If I do my nervous system starts putting up caution tape, comedy is how I let the truth breathe. Colors of my pain is the part of me saying, here is what happened, bombed. App is the part saying and here is why the punch line needed a turn. Red line is the pain heckling me back. That is the healthy version, not hiding, not whining, not making victims the joke. Roasting myself as the guy who had to learn everything the expensive way. Some people get wisdom from mentors. I got wisdom from overdue notices, bad timing, hard work, pride, grief, fast decisions, and a life that kept saying, you sure, apparently I was sure, repeatedly. That is why my story works for comedy. The pain is real, but the pattern is ridiculous. I kept trying to build freedom with the same personality trait that kept starting fires. That is a sitcom with invoices. The four colors help me make sense of it. Yellow sees the heart, green sees the lesson, blue sees the masks I wore to survive. Red sees the fight and says, stand up. All four are in the waiting room. They are not there to shame me. They are there to help me tell the truth without drowning in it. That is the point now, pain into punch lines, truth into lessons, comedy into survival. And if the waiting room gets too full, I do what I do best. I call the next number and make it pay rent in the story. That is the part I wish younger Jesse understood. You do not have to turn every scar into a sermon and you do not have to pretend it never hurt. There is a middle lane, tell the truth, find the lesson. Roast the stubborn version of yourself that needed the lesson delivered by a brick with your name on it. That is where the book and comedy shake hands. The book says this mattered. The comedy says and brother, you are not easy to teach. Both are true. That is why colors of my pain keeps calling. It is not asking me to stay wounded. It is asking me to stop wasting the material.\n\n[THAT WAS ALL JOKES. None of it was real. Every person, company, movie, advertisement and event in this show is made up. These are characters, not real people — performed by AI voices for comedy. Nothing said here is a statement of fact about anybody. Fiction only. Jokes and giggles.]", "fiction_notice_audio": true}